time to update abit of my life.
ever since sch start i been emo-ing till now dunno wad happen to me.
everyday same thing really dun feel like going to sch.
really miss those time can slp till zi ran xing.
sick of tired of her attittude.
that day quarral with her again cos of that bitch la.
which i think how i treated her is nth wrong i really cnt tahan her attitude le la.
cnt imagin how am i going live through that 3 year with her next year.
nafa is in less dan a week time and i not ready for it.
that day during pe do abit all my 5 station n 2.4 cnt make it at all la.
all this i didnt really do it seriously ok that my fault.
i dunno b4 doing anything my heart is like going to pump out of my body like that la.
dunno wad e hell i nevours at la.
sian.

after the 2 day work during sept i dunno wad happen to me i keep feel so lonely untill now.
slowly i realize how no frien i have.
e lonely feeling is getting worth .
it like eating up e whole entire me now.
keep asking myself alot alot who am i.
y am i here.
wad do i actually wan to do.
the thing i plan issit wad i really wan to do.
can i make it anot.
all this unsure question is getting more n more.
the more i added in the more scare and lost i am.
wad wrong with me.
really hate this kind of feeling.
i hate myself alot.

Q：幸福？
A：幸福對我而言是件離我非常遠的東西，想也不敢想擁有它。
Q：相信？
A：相信是件非常可怕的東西。尤其用在人生上，到最後你只得到背叛。
Q：愛？
A：我不知道那時什麽，每人教過我。
Q：公平？
A：它從來都沒存在過。要是有公平的話人的手指就不會有長短。
Q：自由？
A：想過很多次切從未得到答案。
Q：累？
A：是精神上還是身體上的累？
Q：死？
A：一件人人都害怕的事。
Q：生？
A：一件人人都經歷過的事。
Q：人生？
A：在你還沒找到自己想要的答案時，它只不是一條你給走完的路不管好或坏。
Q：答案？
A：答案是件你想要聼和認爲是的東西。

他：想哭嗎？
我：不知道。哭，好像又忘了是怎樣的。
他：累嗎？
我：如果你是指精神上的累，或許還真的有那麽一點。
他：未來的功做真的是你想要的嗎？
我：不知道。也許是，也許不是。
他：不是，那是爲了錢嗎? 是，真的是你的夢想嗎？
我：也可以說是真的為了錢。夢想，它也許成經是。
他：那現在呢？
我：我只能說現在是模糊的。 人真的還可以有夢想嗎？有多少人真的打成了自己的夢想？
他：人是可以有夢想的。只看你有沒有勇氣和毅力去打成。這世界上有很多人都做到了，當然你也一定可以。
我：真的可以嗎？這世界真的很殘酷，我們縂給犧牲一些東西才能擁有想要的。
他：可以。不是每件事都給做出犧牲的。這世界沒有人能擁有一切。
我：在做出選擇時是真的很痛苦。人可以不可以不要做任何選擇？
他：不能。選擇的確很痛苦，如果不選擇的話會更痛苦。
我：爲什麽？他：縂有一天你會知道答案的。
我：真的會有那一天嗎？
他：會。你的人生還常還有很多東西在等著你學習。

NIGHTIME IS NO LONGER TIRED SHE IS HAPPY NOW!!
thanks to all my awersome friends accompany me when i down even though i didnt sae y....
thanks you all for brighten me up love u all hehe!!!
ps: should i change my blog link since nightime is no longer tired le haha

alot thing happen in this 2 week which i dunno where should start blogging abt it.
last week as usual la meet pam for e whole week and wad really happen i dun rmb too ops all i rmb is what happen in Oktober feasta.

this week mon:
when driving ended get super angery with e insturctor....
after tat went to meet june go walk walk bla bla bla.....

this week tue:
when driving again n i feel like i very dumb la so easy thing must learn 2 time sian.
after tat went home jia xu call ask me go cwp with him.
he really very free he just wan to buy a slippies he run 3 places la.
after getting he $50++ slippies we took a bus tat go 2 big round back to e same place we board it dan finally go to northpoint.
meet pam n walk ard while waiting for jia xu go home n put his slippies.
less dan 8 hr time i back to amk again.
meet tl n sihui went for dinner dan go watch meatball.
e show is very nice n funny u listen to how loud sihui laugh will knw how funny is it.
after moive have no place to go all shop is starting to close so we like aunty n ah pek we went to eat dessert n talk la.
old le is really old le now we already doing all those aunty n ah pek stuff la.

update
this week wed (today)
meet cat for lunch really very very long nve saw her le.
after lunch we walk back to my hs she wan to play wii end up become watching tv.
and she bring back all my mayday concert cd and she wan zhang wei ji you =.=
haha really enjoy meeting her today.
ps:cat let meet out soon and hope e concert cd will make u forget all ur worry ^^

this few day my mood is really very bad la.
did really expect my mood can turn out to be so bad la.
haiz i really keep thinking issit my problem or wad haiz....
i really feeel so left out n extra at there la.
especially when going home tat part is even worse la.
going home should be something high n happy la end up it sux la.
i gt a feel like i a ball beening kick here n there la.
what e hell is all this sian